In Search of a Search : a Poem

I forced myself to do this... Cant help it..! yeah i cant help me being here just about to fill this post with a poem.
My poem is :
 

In search of a search
I would never fetch,
I am in well of hell
dwelling like a shell ,
I am a Knight
but not tonight,
I am in a journey
alone without any,
In search of a search


I wasn't here
thats why i am here,
Me and my horse
are now about to remorse,
In search of a search

Today I am here living 
tomorrow I may be leaving
where am I heading,
In search of a search

Its now in the morning
My back is already burning
so, its towards west I am running,
In search of a search

The road is long
Its million times a furlong,
I only wasn't wrong
I also am wrong
there is no one with me to come along, 

In search of a search,
A never ending Research 

P.S : A poem alone doesnt sound good for me to complete a post..! so just enjoy the poster

 

Fail to Fail

Student : Shit...! I flunked my exam :((..! I wont get job..! I m a looser i wont be helpful to my Parents...!


I am a "FAILURE....!"


-The end-
 

If you are the above character or belong to those types.. may be not exaclty..!  But If you had ever felt sorry about losing just one thing in your life and named it a "FAILURE" then this is for you ramblers..!


Let me tell you What is a Failure....!!


-> Just like every 3 kilos flesh with grams of Not-Yet-Started-Working Brain you were pulled out of something, into this world....! Its the first "stepping stone of your success.." I mean its your first Failure...! Yah getting into or entering something without your knowledge & will or interest is utterly a Failure.

-> Seeing things for 3 years as a child and not remembering a bit of them is  a failure.
wait a minute....! may be not so big failure... If no hot girl/boy had kissed you..!! wen u were child.

-> In your 5th class (speaking in terms of before 2000 situation) If you dint had a crush or any knowledge about love.. sorry friend you were a Failure.

-> You have repeated any class of your school..?? being left behind by all your friends and network...? you did it again "Failure"



->Okay the real failure comes now i.e after your 10th class.. I m sure 99% were failures in this..! "You studied Bi.P.C or M.P.C just because your parents wanted to..! dint you...??" You people know this better as u did intermediate in those Narachaitanyas...!


->Okay i will excuse you for all the above failures if u haven't joined Engineering...!But you must have sure did...!

*i m using bold letters only for word Failure *

Skipping the Best or real engineering part 
Reference :http://midsmind.blogspot.com/2009/10/real-engineering.html

=>Here comes Real Failures you should really regret about..!


->Your age is 22 and you are still Virgin..!!? My dear friend this is the biggest failure any human can ever be...! trust me you cant have a worse failure than this..! reading this, you still may not give a big thought about it..! but if u think u r different n if u love to act different too..! then you must not have Failed in this. Sorry if u r one...! n if u r jealous of me...!!


->At the age of 25.. you want to go for a movie in Imax and if you aren't going by CAR.. yeah the "F" word again Failure.


->By 27 you married..!? Ok then asshole you are a Fucking Fairly a Failure


->Age 30..? Still with the same person whom you married..!? 
Ha ha you always failing Moron, enjoy the Failure.

 
->30-40...? Earning money but in the job u dont like...!? I really got a word for you..! the same old word... Failure.

-> You just celebrated your 40th birthday..? And you are still in hunt of money with all those business or job tensions.....!!??
Was it already 3 days you slept with a hot chick..? 
Was it already 2 days since you had a party..? 
Was it already 24 hours you watched a nice movie..?
Was it already 12 hrs you had beer..!?
Was it already 6 hours you had yummy food..?
Was it already 3 hours you smoked a cigarette ...!??


Why do you live 
Mr/Ms.
Soon-to-be-living-your-short-ass-life-in-agonizing-pain.??


You are a Failure.. and I can give a warranty for next 20 years on a product like you... which will be the same, always failing shit..!


So Just Fail to Fail My dear..!!


P.S:
I just failed in writing this post in the way i wanted it to be. ;)

'CAT'er Pilla

Once upon a time when my wisdom communicated with my brain, it said
" Earn money ; Eat food ; Have sex " . Since then i always encouraged that communication. It was exactly one and half year ago, my life had some crucial things in fact lustful things coming in.
Most crucial thing was CAT..! yeah i m speaking about studies, education etcetera..!! Sorry folks.
But this CAT had an deep buried enthusiasm behind it, thats called
"Thirst for Lively & luxurious Life".

Life is all about Money is the inevitable fact.
I heard many preachers and babas or teachers saying
"Its not money you earn in your life but its people..!" 
Dont give me that bullshit. Of course i agree with the fact that people are very important in one's life but its MONEY in the first place. I believe i can manage earning both of them as there is no lack of people in our country.

So this million dollar realization made me be practical and accurate about earning money hence i found CAT as my cup of tea or bottle of beer or whatever.


I was ambitious and very very aspirational. I was 100 % confident then and at the same time I was having fun, enjoying my emotional status, relishing the friendships, loves, relations, reminiscence what not. In spite of all these i was focused towards CAT. But in last one month i am deprived and became weak and feeble seeing the exam date getting closer and I almost lost hope. I left cat to garbage guys a week ago.

But.... there is a But...!
Realizations or inspirations or motivations doesn't intimate their arrival. they just came straight away into me couple of days back. Astonishingly there is no reason for it. Of course i am happy for their Come back which makes me 
"Come Back".
Now
I remember the CAT aspirant Jaya Simha, IIM-A dreamer Jaya SImha, "Thirst for Lively&luxurious Life" Jaya Simha, Finally I remember me.


My present CAT-erpillar stage will soon undergo successful metamorphosis and will become a beautiful Butterfly flying with its wings of freedom and happiness.


And this post is cater-PILLAR.

Lemon Tea, Amen.

Define Perfect evening..? sitting in front of my PC, I asked it myself a couple of years ago...!, & I never awaited an answer..before I could get an answer I would be on my bike nearing Malakpet...to meet a guy, who calls himself
 "not-so-good-looking-fat-Sandeep" he would be waiting at his apartments..!
& from then It takes exactly 2min for us to sapid the perfect evening - that I was dreaming for that past 10 mins.

Its Lemon Tea, It was like Scarlet Johnson available every evening, but never boring..!! 
Sandeep introduced it to me..! 
Its nice to have this both smoker & speaker beside you..! and i always relished it..!
In a green calm peace seeking colony there was a narrow footpath to sit for our place seeking ass...!
landing on that foot path with couple of cups and a cigar resembles switching of the lights on your First Night..!!

which starts in the next possible fraction of second...
Sandeep inhales - I sip, Sandeep exhales - I sip, then Sandeep sips & I sip.
by the time I kill two limes,he murders a lemon & a little soldier.
There ends our "Tea - Time" along with all the romantic talk on movies we would have seen on that day...!!



And its Craziness that drives me back to home with a feeling that
Most beautiful moments of life are never scheduled or planned....! They Just happen either accidentally or incidentally.... 
But for accidents to happen there lies an unknown hidden attitude towards them.. and we always had it...!!


"Lemon Tea,Amen"


P.S:
For past six months the lemon tea owner had problem with the place with some controversies involved.. and now in malakpet lemon tea is not available neither sandeep....

London NightMares

As the old (may be new) saying says... "Don't get fucked... you can get AIDS...!!"
It was true perhaps very true..!
I was into this Rajadhani theater screening LONDON DREAMS which released today (the most deplorable day in Indian Cinema)..!!!


Being a movie freak & an aspiring director...., an year ago i realized that i shouldn't watch a movie basing on reviews....! & I regret for it Big Time...!
I havent had any expectations for them to get shattered.. i wanted to watch it just because i had 50 bucks and three hours... now I feel that burning the 50 bucks and regretting 3 hours for doing so... would have given me more pleasure...!!


I really don't want to go into details of this "so called movie..!"
You can watch it and feel the intensity of this catastrophe yourself..!


But one thing flashed in mind when i finished watching it....! I was in Mumbai last year.. unfortunately I lost my Handycam over there which was my B'day gift..!! without a choice left i forgot about it....!


Now..! I mean today, after an year I detected the asshole who stole it.... Its Vipul Shah the Producer of this movie London Dreams and that cheaky Basterd used My handycam to Shoot the whole movie...!! fuckin asshole...!!


See my friends 
Are you aware of shawshank Redemption...!? 
I dont know how happy and relived the character of Tim Robbins felt being out of that Shawshank Prison after 20 years..!
But with all stubbornness in my voice i can certainly say that i felt 3 times more relived and delighted the moment i stepped out of this theater...!!


Hence I call it "The London Nightmare Redemption"

Hamburger's Suicide Note...!

Hamburger a.k.a Chicken burger....!!
If you say you haven't had one... you are lame, but
If you say you haven't heard about it, its a crime.
Yeah..!!

Hamburger was invented in 1885 in a German city called Hamburg, Hence it was named as Harmburger.
Burger's evolution over a century almost changed human's lifestyle across the world. Once it was variety, now it became a necessity.
Burger flavored itself gradually until 1970's and drastically since then.



For US citizens, initially it was only part of their life & eventually it became part of their blood and even shit....!
The same strategy and the mode was spread around the world.. say by Mcdonalds, Burger king.. Big kahuna burger etcetera....


Burger felt very happy by its reputation rearing day by day over the years..
But now it surprises all of us saying 
"its time...! I should suicide.....!!!!!!!!!!!"


Here is its suicide note..


 " I saw adults drooling at me. I saw kids screaming for me. I traveled most parts of the world, i gave birth to many recipes, I enjoyed the touch and taste of fair gulf girls' bubbly sugared pink lips, I kissed their tongue million trillion times. Whole world along with french, love to give me a french kiss..! ,
I dont define my gender, I am male to females and female to males. I am proud to declare  i am the most celebrated snack ever."


"Its been more than 20 years for me in India.. many were reluctant to me earlier.. they were worried about their health and wealth to have me in their belly...! Now they negotiated with themselves. Initially Indians found me very difficult to eat, either i was big or their mouths were small...! but they still tried to bite small parts of me... In fact i liked this style of eating me whenever a hot 20-22 year old girl has me...


An 20 year old hot girl generally won't be hungry.. she eats me just to savor my taste. First she kisses me then does -something- to me with her tongue.. then she forces me to kiss her... we will have oral sex for a second. And will have it 30-40 times for ecery complet me.
I never asked whether she savors me or not...! But i sure does...!
Everything was yummy and erotic in my life hitherto...! 


~I am now with an 45 year old average hyderabadi uncle.. finished his office work and stopped at bakery unusually, with the same unusual fashion he asked for me.
He got me on his table, and i can see his puzzled face. I can read his flummoxed mind... It was very obvious that its his first time..!! The big question he has is.. "How the hell should i eat this Motherfucker...??" He looked around and guess what..? he is the newton of the situation..!! he figured out an way to eat me...!Oooh Shitt He removed sandwiched chicken(my heart) between the two bread bases..! He took one bread base. Fuck..!! he imagined it as a ROTI....!!! and plucked a part of it and that asshole grabbed some chicken with it... Holy fuck...!
Now he is going to insert the wrecked part of the 
Famous-Novel-Hoagy ME in his "not brushed since 12 hours" mouth... I am not dead yet....! I wish i was....! i cant take this anymore.....! I have never met anyone like this in my 124 years....!! This is it..! I am done.. I m done with this ROTI eaters turned BURGER Murderers... I dont want be chagrined or humiliated by 
anyone anymore.....
I know I am going to miss Sugared pink lips' french kisses... but i dont have a choice... May My Recipe Rest in Peace..!

Aware of avarice

Whenever i start eating hyderabadi chicken biryani... I never want to end it.

Whenever i  watch kamal hassan acting i never want to blink my eye lids.

But whenever i hear the conversation of two tarantino characters.. i never want to die.

There is a limit, there was always one for everyone.

and I dont think the same applies for this "one" and for his Brilliantly intelligent splendor.

the ONE and only ONE ingenious, Man with Panache of Panache is

The Filmy Treat tarantino.

He looks like conundrum, Sounds like Brilliant thrum. Thinks like "I-dont-know-how".

But... there is a But...

I want to be like him. I dint just typed it at a go, I thought for a while whether to write it or not...! but i still did it.

How dare am I...?

How could i ever be him..! as a matter of fact how could anyone else can ever be..!

But as my topic says "I am aware of my avarice". I realize it as an real covetousness. and i realized to relish his movies and cherish him always.

And will try to discover "I want to be me" in me

Love is God

But LOVE doesn't exist... In fact it was never existing.. and hence I define love as god.
yeah..! they both doesn't exist. they are the greatest inventions ever made by man to fool himself and restrict himself to just enjoy the water in his well instead of thriving for Beer in the Bar.


when was the last time u loved God...! and let me know if there was at least a singleton set of occasion Ur so called God loving you..!
[ God and Love mean how i want them to mean not your oxford dictionary meanings...!]
Love itself is fake cake... what's this Loving God..?
Doesn't it sound like fucking a 4 month pregnant and claiming the baby as urs..!??


Absolutely man/woman...!!  [if some woman is still reading.. ;)]


You are just machinating your life for the cost of exploring it.


Love and God are the most disgusting METAPHORS.
and people who believe them are indisputably MORONS.


If i have to neglect rhyming, i would call them imbecile-ass-holes.
and I was one. but not anymore.
and theres no right time to think about u. 


P.S
I want all of u imbecile-ass-holes to keep banging ur ass with ur head n be watever u r,forever and ever.

17 inch wide screen idol, i worship..!

I m not lying:
I thought i was dying, when i was crying in my cradle. i thought life is al about crying in a cradle until the age of 3.

Schooling and simultaneously fooling your parents about studies until age of 16.
then 2 years of intermediate in say Narayana,chaitanya..? it was just like sunbathing in africa.

Finally entered engineering - the hot hell
but eventually or fortunately i discovered a hidden chilled well at one nook of it. guess wat it wasn't an empty well.. it had 3 ice bergs
1.Shiva
2.Midhun punukollu
3.Sandeep Gorrepati

They were the best doctors for me, they had the perfect cure and prescription for my selfemployed disease.
They had something more than sanjeevani - its the love, lust,lecherousness,crave and thirst for movies.

 Shiva enlightened me with all clever telugu movies and he is the only person with whom i can discuss about Kamal Hassan, except no one even have half knowledge of wat he has about kamal

Midhun introduced me to plethora of hollywood movies, i owe him for life time.

Sandeep made me addicted to my favorite addiction, he sounds like an administrator of IMDB site, He runs the bank of most intellectual and witty dialogues.

I dont think i can find better characters than these. So i m trying to find better character in them.

We four have common idol, thats our, PC the monitor especially "the 17 inch idol we worship"

Pick your Trick

|~ Trrng Trnnng... Trrng Trnnng.... hello.. Once upon a time a guy called graham bell invented an electronic device called telephone and it used to yell like my first two lines until 21st century. ~|


Its not a prologue to my post... lets suppose its not related at all, but still don't be amazed if i link it up with something else by the end.


What are we looking at now..??

Here it goes the famous situation called "Final Fuck". It wasn't really the final one but why do we call it so...!?
Final fuck doesn't mean a couple (irrespective of their gender) having sex for last time. instead it is the final shot or final bang or a "Final Fuck". it is the throne with a crown you won. its the achievement of past ___ mins (depends on you)

Now i m giving you a minute time to think how i would relate this to "not a prologue " thing, stop reading for a min.
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